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My name is Teddie. I am 42 years old and married to my wonderful wife Chie. We have been married for 14 amazing years now. We have a great relationship and an exceptional life. I really couldn’t be happier. I have anxiety issues and depression. What? Yes, I suffer from anxiety and depression. I didn’t know that until just a few months ago. I stumbled upon a tweet about some organization Russ Pitts and Susan Arendt were starting, Take This. They said in the tweet we should all check it out. I’m a big fan so, of course I did. I read everything about Take This.
I knew the way I felt day to day. And I knew something was off. It’s been off for a while but I didn’t know what was happening to me. I also didn’t tell anyone either. Reading about Take This and reading the information on the site…It was like a light bulb went off in my head. “Hey, I understand what they are talking about.” “I know that feeling.” “That happens to me too.” I knew, just from what I was reading that I understood my problems. Because of Take This I was able to identify what was happening to me. Just knowing and understanding was a tremendous help. It was a huge relief.
Now don’t get me wrong, the anxiety and depression still sometimes get the best of me. A few weeks ago I went through a bad day. I was supposed to stream that day at too. I sat in my chair, in front of the PC, for what felt like an eternity. I felt like I was suffocating but I had to stream. I set a schedule and I felt I had to keep to it, especially if I wanted my channel to grow, get partnered and make money. It was just too much pressure, I felt like I wasn’t going to be able to handle streaming that day. And then I had an idea. In my stream title, I wrote “Fighting Anxiety, One Stream at a Time!” I don’t know why I did that and why it somehow made things better, but it did. I now make sure to have that in my title every time I stream. It reminds me that it’s alright to have anxiety, but while I have it, I also can deal with it. I deal with things in odd ways, I guess. But it works for me and I would never have been able to stream and deal with the anxiety without Take This.