I’ve suffered from major anxiety for about three years now. I come from an abusive home and my mom suffers from BPD (bipolar disorder); this takes a toll on me daily, as at the age of 19 I feel as if I’m the adult taking care of her. And I have a hard time admitting it and handling it.
I can get really down on myself and almost depressed sometimes, because I never feel “normal”. Especially because of the home I come from. The only thing that has kept me going is my boyfriend, he has picked me up when I’ve fallen down. This website has helped him better understand what I am going through. I’ve learned that there’s nothing wrong with me, and that I am normal. I still struggle with the fact that, working at GameStop, my manager isn’t as understanding when I tell him I can’t work because I have therapy. But I’ve learned not everyone will understand, and it’s okay.
It’s tough when you feel like no one’s there for you. But remember someone’s always there, because you never know who else is going through what you are and understands. Don’t be ashamed to ask for help sometimes. It’s okay. I’ve learned that and while it’s a long journey ahead, I know I can tackle it and will make it through. And everyone else can too. One step at a time it is possible. Don’t give up. You were put here for a reason. Find it.